Wednesday, June 19, 2013

This friend

Hello there!!
Its been awhile since my last update
last year?around 6 months plus?
hehehe..lazy mode been switch on
wuuu background music sounds nice this time
pick the right song I guess?
okay lagu hindustan merapu ni haa kat earphone ni
sepatah haram aku tak faham

Di tengah malam waktu malaysia (ecehhh)
menulis blog kerana kebosanan..okay fine saya masih jetlag lagi
rekod jetlag terbaru! mungkin.. ( penyakit kelupaan yg kronik)

Okay enough with the merapu and all
This friend?who is it?
yg di perkatakan tahu sendiri siapa diri anda
nak perasan pun boleh. nak buat buat tak tahu juga di alu-alukan
tiada silap dan salah di sini

This friend who treat me like 5 years old girl,
care like a parent and protect me like sibling
anything bad come from this friend mouth never ache my heart
because the words its either the truth I've to accept or a super lame joke in serious manner
perli memerli bagai perbualan harian..ehh? (fikir.fikir.dan fikir..okay abaikan)

since I got back for my summer holiday which it super summer here in malaysia
my migrain heartlessly attack without mercy
maybe my body dont get enough rest or it just me who mengada-ngada
keep on whining to this friend
this was said by the friend
' nak apa..nak aku buat ritual ke apa? main jauh - jauh sana kat kepala org lain '
and the mengada me still keep on whining..the pain doesnt subdue
migrain ni jahat..I already double my painkiller dosage for few days
i think my brain got problem lah to react with the the painkiller
and another heartless confession
 'Kau ni kena faham, yg bilanya masa otak kau pernah tak bermasalah,
 pg merajuk sana, aku ada kerja nak buat..nnt bila free aku pujuk' 
as usual the overreacted me says something that this friend can always predict
and will let it be like nothing happens because this friend knows when I'm really get mad and merajuk.

' Fine lah kerja lagi penting.tak nak kawan dah! Belanja aiskrim! '
no reply for few days..exaggerate just for one day..
jahat.kejam.and name it whatever bad words I will send to this friend
it does not affect my friend even a bit
 'perangai tak ubah macam budak 5 tahun..nak aiskrim bagai
bajet kau comel macam tu? '
the reply after everything I said..this is my friend kind of pujuk
hehh..tak seronok langsung kan?
and the tak seronok part keep on going..bla bla bla
'mana lah nak hilang sakit tu, dh tau badan tak cukup rehat pg lg jalan sini sana,
dah tau tak tahan cuaca panas mengada jugak nak berjalan macam cuti tu seminggu je
bawak bertenang sikit makcik! ' 
and it keep on going like hours..
macam peluru pun ada
but its okay its for my own good actually
last but not least the pujian for this friend
always be there for me no matter what time
in whatever condition you in
and calmly help me with whatever problem i have
hope I can be better friend for you too :)

p/s : dont say about kahwin anymore..tired of it already and I've loss trust in men!

Friday, March 8, 2013

The shoes and people

P!NK- Fucking Perfect

The moment I learn new things i realized I've know so little,
Life isn't always about me..and things doesn't always goes according to my way
People talk..people think and they think they have right to do so
freely judging and think no one is better than them
well I've to say...humans are selfish
when they want others to care about their feeling and what-so-ever
they at the 1st place never care about others
we've heard people said about goes the same way to everyone
the fruit you get today is what you've planted yesterday
so don't blame others..

Just when they saw someone that they think not proper
they talk about them
when they saw about things happen they didn't like
they talk about it
when they didn't like the person
again they talk
they make judgement out of what they saw
have you ever think?
what story happen behind things you saw..
why it happens to something like that
you were never in their shoes but still you talk about them
have you ever wonder?
can i do any better than they did it if i were to walk in their shoes
the answer most probably will be no..
and yet you still talk about them
you'll get angry when people talk about you, your friend, or your family
but have you ever think of feelings people you've been talk all this time?
how hurt they can be?
how hurt their family?
how angry their friends?

Today I realized how lucky I am to walk in my own shoes
and walk my own life path
i dont know about how many people have better life than me
but I know I'm more than grateful with what I've have compared to what others dont have
despise what people will talk about me..
I tell myself to comfortably walk in my own shoes and lead my life to better one
let them be..they can live with their talk if they want to because in the end
the one I should care is What Allah think of me
not the busybody people who always love to talk about others..

I remember this one phrase my ustaz told me
"Hati tempat jatuhnya pandangan Allah , Jasad lahir tumpuan manusia.   Utamakanlah pandangan Allah daripada pandangan manusia"

p/s: people change and its their choice to be a better one or the other way around :)

Thursday, January 31, 2013


This heart had broken once but now it shattered to pieces..
I've lost faith in them..
It take me years to open up but once again I left with pain
no one to be blame because of my incompetence..
people may think that they are not responsible for what other thinks of them
but I realised that I'm responsible for my action that makes what people thinks of me

The tears rundown to my cheeks..
On the last chapter, I've end it with a fullstop after the last sentence..
Now everything remain as history for me..
memory left to be remember..
no more start anew chance shall I say..
What left in the history can't be change nor be corrected
It can only be left as it is..

The Lone Ranger
with the new title of life..
I'm gonna enjoy my life to the fullest
Let it be happy and joy only to be written :)

p/s : sometimes it last in love,  but sometimes it hurt instead

Thursday, October 18, 2012

The me who is wondering...

I'm bored..bored to death
DAMN bored!!
gahh..why lah laptop you rosak the time
I have so little class anjd too much free time
wai oh wai...

okay..stop that nurul..
please just stop that drama thinggy..
the usual me lah k always..
but the great thing is..i have some
I mean a LOT of free time to do some
sefl reflecting and some critical thinking..
eh matured enough ke nk critical thinking bagai ni..

masa bosan ini telah diluangkan
dgn ber whatsapp-ing dgn family tercinta
termasuk lah cousin yg monyet gila and merapu.. they're not monyet..
Semua terpaksa kelayan kerenah minah london
tak cukup matang tak kira masa..

   'tak reply i'm going to cry'

ayat berbaur ugutan kepada cousin2 tersayang..
i'm a manja girl..
say what you wanna say
cause they'll love me no matter what
got that?no you dont!be jealous biaatch!

dlm ber-whatsapp bagai ni..
tetiba timbul isu fitnah dlm minda separa sedar
terfikir jugak akibat menyebarkan cerita yg kita blm pasti..
and i was wondering..
kalau kita sebarkan fitnah pada org
dh tentu lah berdosa
bila org yg mendengar berita yg kita sebarkan
menyebarkan pulak kepada org lain..
kita yg memulakan ni bershare dosa diorang..
oh mai..thats mean everytime org sebarkan
fitnah yg kita sebarkan
we gonna get share dosa jugak..
*time ni rasa bertaubat dh nk cerita psl org*

at the same time terfikir jugak..
org yg sebar fitnah ni apa dia dpt?
okay..dosa tu confirmlah..
selain tu?satisfaction is it?
satisfaction yg akhir nya memakan diri?
terlayar-layar lah jugak di kepala..
diorg ni dh terlampau bnyk pahala and confirm msk syurga
sbb tu cari time untk kumpul dosa pulak?
and i'm still wondering until now..
couldnt get the right answer..
but note to myself..speak when silence is not doing any good :)

p/s: when telling something that person doesn't like is also mengumpat..

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Emergency leave :S

err..konon.konon bunyi ambulance?
kata emergency..hehehe
okay merapu

well the super crazy nurul have become much more crazier
dengan membeli tiket pulang ke malaysia bagaikan
membeli ikan di pasar
"eh..dia ni org punya lah kumpul duit nk ke london dia balik mcm KL JB gayanya "
my abah said that.. comment..
well this time i feel much more like a holiday
because I get to spend more time with le friendsssss
and the BF :)
oh this is why I love Malaysia.. #eh?
aci ke macam tu?
even though this is an emergency leave
still i had a great fun
but towards the end..
I feel sad...AGAIN!!!
*duh-uh..the usual lah..*

while in Malaysia..I do realize my fashion disaster thinggy
 become much more worse than before..
red with purple and handbag with sneakers..
nurul you so gonna die as a fashion disaster!!
I have no fashion sense and do intend to be the best fashion disaster..
and every time people look at me...I feel so handsome lahh!!
*this has come to fast as it can!pelisss!*
well..not attention I'm seeking
but sometimes it kinda
fun ke?
as long as I said fun lah kan..
its my holiday so let me rule it!!
till next time..
much love :*

p/s: I've learn many things and the most important thing..jangan terjebak dgn permainan bodoh yg dicipta oleh orang-orang bodoh

Monday, September 24, 2012

I cried and i realised

hingus meleleh..*lap2 dgn hujung tudung*
erkkk..tetiba teringat dkt my friend..
she used to say this
"berulat hujung tudung tu haih" to aisyah sofia..
everytime I said that to anyone teringat kat ayat dia..
me smile :)

I'm crying?
Yes I am..
well not so homesick *muka berlagak*
it just things does happen for a reason
which i dont seem to see the reason..YET
perhaps after thiss..tomorrow month..
okay better stop now or it gonna take the whole post..

to be seen as a bad person always not good
but in my case I choose to be seen that way..
well is not I like it but it the easiest way for me
I've cried so much for what happen
and I do make more than once promise to myself
to STOP crying for this matter but..
this tears gland doesnt seem to understand my mind
or maybe they ter-forgot the promise we made together *eh yeke?*

I'm sorry to people who might have or maybe hurt
I'll take the responsibility for what gonna happen and what had happen
I promise myself *again?*
cry as much as you want
but never let myself question for what I have
thats not gonna solve the problem but at least it can only affect me

p/s: I live my life for myself :)

word trick..

gahhhh..I cant stop eating..that does mean saya di paras seteres yg amat melampau
erkkk?seteres?hmmm..what happened sampai seteres?
wondering.wondering.wondering.... exam is 2 months away from now..
I almost ter-forgot?eh?
am supposed to vacuum my room but
I put the vacuum besides me instead..
on my some games..
with imaginary that the vacuum will do some work for me..
seperti tlg menyedut lemak..
okay..itu serius imiginasi semata-mata (-___-)"'
go work your ass lah lazy bum! *can't hear you.can't hear you*

wasnt I suppose to be in front of my book?
or perhaps my examkit? class note?
*it can can wait* *hasutan minda jahat*

Hectic week it was..
class was 'fun' as usual..
bought my self a new pair of contact lens..
so that I can pretend i'm prettier than before..
* only happen..IN YOUR DREAM!!*
as I've said..getting a bit nervous for this time exam..
*mcm lah first timer*

learn few new things about myself..
as I get stress..My maigraine wont do any justice to me..
me sad so muchyyy..
and I loss half of my deria rasa everytime I take my painkiller..
It does kill the pain and it also killing my sense of taste..
and I do hate that..
and during the migraine attack..most of the thing I did..
I wont be able to recall them..
poor me..but its okay..
with this I've learned a new thing..
which make me more malas in kelas..

If the migraine attack during my time in class..
I turn on my recorder
and that way I can always recall what I've learn for that day
akibat fikiran jahat lebih menguasai..
good things turn out to be bad things for me..
when I'm malas to salin the notes..
I turn on the recorder and have leisure time by myself

okay..gonna sambung my drama lesson.. study time.. *liar.liar.liar*
till next time..

p/s: think positive cause you only live your life once!