I cried and i realised

sroot..sroott...
hingus meleleh..*lap2 dgn hujung tudung*
erkkk..tetiba teringat dkt my friend..
she used to say this

"berulat hujung tudung tu haih"

okay..credit to aisyah sofia..
everytime I said that to anyone teringat kat ayat dia..
me smile :)

I'm crying?
Yes I am..
well not so homesick *muka berlagak*
it just things does happen for a reason
which i dont seem to see the reason..YET
perhaps after thiss..tomorrow
or...next week.next month..
okay better stop now or it gonna take the whole post..
hahaha


to be seen as a bad person always not good
but in my case I choose to be seen that way..
well is not I like it but it the easiest way for me
I've cried so much for what happen
and I do make more than once promise to myself
to STOP crying for this matter but..
this tears gland doesnt seem to understand my mind
or maybe they ter-forgot the promise we made together *eh yeke?*


I'm sorry to people who might have or maybe hurt
I'll take the responsibility for what gonna happen and what had happen
Today..
I promise myself *again?*
cry as much as you want
but never let myself question for what I have
thats not gonna solve the problem but at least it can only affect me
 *cry.cry.cry*


p/s: I live my life for myself :)

word trick..

*munch.munch.munch*
gahhhh..I cant stop eating..that does mean saya di paras seteres yg amat melampau
erkkk?seteres?hmmm..what happened sampai seteres?
wondering.wondering.wondering....
ohh..my exam is 2 months away from now..
I almost ter-forgot?eh?
hahaha
am supposed to vacuum my room but
I put the vacuum besides me instead..
on my laptop..play some games..
with imaginary that the vacuum will do some work for me..
seperti tlg menyedut lemak..
okay..itu serius imiginasi semata-mata (-___-)"'
go work your ass lah lazy bum! *can't hear you.can't hear you*

WAIT!!
wasnt I suppose to be in front of my book?
or perhaps my examkit?
or..my class note?
*it can wait.it can wait* *hasutan minda jahat*

Hectic week it was..
class was 'fun' as usual..
bought my self a new pair of contact lens..
so that I can pretend i'm prettier than before..
*eh.eh.that only happen..IN YOUR DREAM!!*
as I've said..getting a bit nervous for this time exam..
*mcm lah first timer*


learn few new things about myself..
as I get stress..My maigraine wont do any justice to me..
me sad so muchyyy..
and I loss half of my deria rasa everytime I take my painkiller..
It does kill the pain and it also killing my sense of taste..
and I do hate that..
and during the migraine attack..most of the thing I did..
I wont be able to recall them..
poor me..but its okay..
with this I've learned a new thing..
which make me more malas in kelas..
hehehe


If the migraine attack during my time in class..
I turn on my recorder
and that way I can always recall what I've learn for that day
akibat fikiran jahat lebih menguasai..
good things turn out to be bad things for me..
when I'm malas to salin the notes..
I turn on the recorder and have leisure time by myself
*ish..lah**nogood.nogood*


okay..gonna sambung my drama lesson..
eh.eh.silap..my study time.. *liar.liar.liar*
till next time..


p/s: think positive cause you only live your life once!

I've learn my lesson

when the time has come..
oh I ter-forgot what I wanna write..AGAIN!
argghh..this lah I really dont like..
me seteres!! *stress*


This week was like a lonely holiday trip for myself, me and I
wasn't really a holiday trip..
more to museum trip..hmmm kot?
influenced by abang Im who know so many things
which he end up giving me some *many many time it was* story telling to me
impressed with things he told me..
I give myself a trip to 2-3 *or maybe 4?* museum..I end up spending my whole day
in the museum..
A great experience I must say
well there's to many things to explore..got myself immersed to the history
and I'm proud to say I wandered around the museum with 'baju kurung'
in which i never intend to wear even if I attend formal 'majlis' in malaysia
quite bangga isn't it? *geleng2..ish2 riak.riak*

'when you start to explore you know how little you've learned'

this word make me realize..
you only live once #YOLO
explore and learn everything before its too late
the new prinsip I give to myself


While giving myself a little present which a trip to the museum
I must say I'm bersyukur with the gift from Him
It always there but I never try to appreciate and try at least to be grateful
yesterday, I realized..It was never a kekurangan
while I was jalan-jalan inside the museum
because I was quite small compared to others they thought I was under 16
they let me to stand in front so I can learn more and hear clearer
during the hands on session they let me to see and touch the artifact before them
even during Q&A session they let me to question first before others
shouldn't I be grateful? *nod.nod*

Before..
I will get angry when they thought  I'm younger than my age
but now
I shall say..I'm grateful
credit to my size, I was given extra privilege
for most of the thing
*smile*

Happy person I was during the trip
forget all the problem
and while walking on my way back home
I give myself a free time
to think..
people can be significant and insignificant to my life
Its me up to me.,,to choose who they are in my life
Its my life after all..and I decided you're no longger significant to my life
your words are like angin yg bertiup di waktu petang
seronok..sedih..marah.. semuanya berkemungkinan
but it only gonna last for that time..during the tiupan..nothing more than that
your choice to do or say anything you wanna say
I'm gonna live my life to the fullest no matter what people think and say..
as long my parent are there for me and knows who I am
Its more than enough for me
I don't need a faker but can always be accessory to my journey of life
so that i won't get bored along the journey :)


p/s: I do forgive but I don't forget..

Up and down?

Severe breakdown I have here

After a few moment of joy

Nightmare during the day perhaps?

Can’t seem to find the way out quite for a while

Lost in the maze of my own complexion

Too much to care and too much to think

Again the migraine tag along to show my stress level above my limit

Remains to keep me reminded things have to go slow to their own pace

Painkiller stretch its arm to take me down to earth

Let the mind have a rest and let the body take a breathe

Let go everything for a while, a moment for myself I shall enjoy

Crying, mad and in the end laugh to myself

Problem solved it seems

Sunshine come and shine..

Another day to go through with the past remain as a history

Put up a smile and walk away with confident

p/s: the alarm rang already and I woke up from the imaginary world of mine

rink?rank?ring?rang?

I'm late.late.late and keep on coming late..
urgghhh..I guess things has gone back to normal?
*ermm..normal ke?*
*hmmm.normal it is*
*some korean song in the background~~*

first I start to lambat  datang to class
*not so late as I came before my lect came in..hehehe*
and today i'm late for my skating class
my coach already waited for me outside the rink
*dang! why did this malas come from*
after such a long break..I came late for my first lesson!
Nice one!
and the worse is..
I forgot to bring my jumper!!
*#$#%^%*$^&$$*
its super cold when you are inside the ice rink
*blurghhh*
my coach which is a very nice and charming lady
lend me her jumper and glove :)
 YEAY!!!
ohh..
she even puji me bacause my skill does not got worse after
a long break
*clap3 for me*
sha asked me to prepare for the next level test..
*what???!!**deep breathe*
nothing much to worry because still have plenty time actualy
hehehe


remeber that I said i wanna enjoy my weekend?
well..I did enjoyed it..
*bliss for me~~*
when for some open house for raya
*wait! in LONDON?* Yes it is*
happy tummy~~
and to make my weekend more joyful..
i went for fruit picking :)
again a happy tummy :9
well thats from me for this time

*a long weekend i have this time 5 days break*
*happy me*


P/S: forgiveness is what you shall seek..not attention :)

I do?

Morning everybody?
morning lah kot..hmmm *selak langsir* *angguk2*
It is morning..
*batuk.batuk* (i'm not feeling well ke?)
*grab a thermometer* wait a couple minute..
oh just fine..penyakit malas lebih ni..hehehe


Feeling lit bit sad here..
My first time to celebrate my Merdeka bukan di Malaysia
Merdeka! Merdeka! Merdeka! 
Oh wait!
before I ter-forgot..
I didn't even celebrate it..
I have class from morning till evening..
*crying alone*
but its okay I guess..as long Malaysia remains in my heart and I do my best to be a good Malaysian
(ehm..ehm..Good ke?)

Well nothing much to say here
as my class have started and it is boring
3 days a week which start from 9 o'clock until 5
take my whole day it seems..
and as I got back from class..homework.homework and homework..
when it comes to end of the day I choose sleep as my bonus for all my hardwork during the day
*eh?hardwork?think twice nurul.think twice*

Guess it come to the end..
gonna enjoy my weekend a lit bit
and have some extraordinary fun
before I start my boring jadual as usual
Got to go
gonna update later :)
Have a nice weekend people
Ceriakan hari anda dgn senyuman
and put more sweets in your smile


p/s: I want some nescafe right now..